connecting with survivor

wow, i am watching survivor, and it is weird that I am connecting with Lisa on survivor. It is weird that i normally view myself as an outsider. i connect with people like Dexter who is a serial killer and you can't be more of an outsider than that. but now I see where this child star has always been performing and thinking about what people think about her. her looks and her actions. She said that even before she was performing that she always felt like she had to be the good girl. I was like wow....even pretty people, someone that I've looked up too since I was a kid...sort of attracted to before I realized what that meant....it's weird that she has the same types of issues that I feel.