Boy do I need help! Feel like I've been hexed

I am starting to feel like I am cursed!

Had problem getting prescription refilled at the beginning of October for my Atenelol. My doctor said that I had missed 2 appointments when I didn't have any scheduled until October 31st.

Had to write a letter to her office to get that taken care of. In the mean time the pharmacy had "loaned" me ten pills which I paid the co-pay for. I recently got a letter from them saying that I owed $4. So I had to call and explain that had paid on the loaned pills. Anyway it is taken care of but still had to go though it.

I started having phone issues where my phone is not reading as a hard drive and not charging. Obviously it is the jack @the bottom of the phone but when I took it in to sprint they said that it was the battery. Oh and my sd kept showing as being unmounted or showing as blank. So for now I'll play the game and try the new battery and get them to understand the other issues as we go along.

Yesterday I was in a minor car accident but I was stupid and called my insurance company first and not the cops. So by the time that the guy got done talking with insurance the guy had left. His story was different from mine and he tried to make it appear that it was my fault. My insurance said that I was not at fault, but when I did get the police to come out the officer said that it was was a civil matter and that she couldn't file a report although she did try to call the kid. So he told at least have the crap scared out of him from that call. I am trying to decide if I should go see a lawyer. I just don't want to ratchet things up but at the same time I don't want that young kid to have his buddies talk him into getting a lawyer and suddenly I am on the defensive when I am the victim.

I tried to help Divya by going and picking up some paint and other stuff. When I got home, the pint of primer fell on the ground and came open so there was about the size of two dinner plates. I've spent the last three days on my hands and knees scrubbing the stupid driveway to get the paint off.

Then my dumbass boss has been taking time off but not putting it on the calendar my shit on calendar. So I took some time off and l purposely didn't add my stuff on the calendar like my boss.  Today when I came back after having a day that I had to take off and I realized that she had been putting my stuff on but had not completely put all of her stuff on. Now I have to decide whether I should add the full day that she took off. I'm thinking that probably the safest will be to add it to the calendar going forward. Especially when she texts to MA or I instead of even sending an email. I'll talk to MA about whether she is on board and will support it.

I had to have a test required from my doctor and this is the second test. My insurance paid for it last time but this time the claim was denied. I can't afford $299. Plus I had to pay out of pocket for this bio feedback stuff that was very expensive... something like $400... and they said that I was incontinent when I wasn't but they needed to show this for my insurance... even though I had to pay out of pocket. Then the diet that they put me on gave me diareahh so the stupid treatment was making we incontinent and I got to pay for that.

I'm know that there are other things that have happened but that is a good overview and I just feel fricking beat up or cursed like I said at the beginning.

I am begging you Angels... especially St. Michael to fight for me. St. Anthony I need a miracle. St. Jude I feel like I am a lost cause and need things to turn around. I'm reaching out to my Grandma, my angels and Jesus to please hear my pleas. Show me that things are going to be turning around. Please give me a sign that things will be changing soon.

In the name of Jesus who shed his holy blood. Amen

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Back to Where I started

Well I've seen it time and again that you have to set your intention, not worry about it, turn it over to God or the angels but do what you need to do to make it happen too.

So my top two are this:
First and foremost I need to get a promotion within the University. I know that if you look back over my previous post that I wanted to stay within the College but I realize now that there are things that are likely to fall apart and I really don't want to be caught in the fall out.
And the bottom line is that I am working for a department that is revenue based and if they don't make the numbers well then I'll have to be looking anyway. I am surprised at at the different director and assistant director positions that have been posted but no interviews.
Angels what my best intention would be to have us receive enough money in a positive way to pay off the major bills which would be house,  car, refinish the pool and get Divya a new car. Then I could just get a different job within the University but not have to make more money. 
My second best intention is to get a promotion that allows us to pay for everything but Divya not have to work.
Finally I need to get the last surgery done as soon as possible so that I can take advantage of the Christmas time off.  Please Lord,  Saints and Angels,  let the surgery be minimal and as soon as possible like on November 22.
In Jesus name I pray.

Big Dream to be a writer and Angel Talk

It seems so strange to me that people would potentially read my blog. I mean I totally changed things when I moved over to this blog.
At one point I was keeping four blogs. One was my private "diary," which is what I moved first. Surprising, right? But there it was right next to my other blogs and while I had it locked down to where only I could post or read any posts well all it took was for someone to look within my blogger dashboard to see it there and get curious. It even contained the name "diary" in it so not to hard for Divya or my oldest Godchild to get curious.
So I created a new identity and changed the names. Rather freeing.
And then my other blogs I realized were really for me to... although I've always had an itch to be a writer and have been told by mentors, bosses, friends and family that I should be a writer. I never really trusted myself to finish a project.
Plus time was getting away from me. I ended up not really having enough time to write and just posting other people's stuff.
I had one for the local area and one that included random weird things from the political, to the environment, to the paranormal and even health. The last one I have kept over with my regular log in and keep it very simple. I have a shitty boss. She holds herself to a very different standard than especially me and my coworkers. That one stays there for documentation. I have to hold myself back because even to think about her or start to describe her gets me going and I need to leave that there as my venting place and as my documentation for self preservation.
This is my outlet. And if you are a reader now or someday, then know this: things may seem like they are disjointed because I've combined three blogs. I've changed all the names of my loved ones. Especially for my amazing Divya which is a representation of her name and herself. God I love her.
I took out most of the political stuff because it really doesn't matter whether you are on the left or right anymore. Our government no longer represents or even understands "the people" I also removed most of the old local references from my Florida blog because first, I moved to a different part of the state since I stated that blog. Second one of my greatest loves in Florida is something that might help to identify me or my family so for Florida stuff I plan to include unique experiences and info that surprise and delight me.
So if you come along dear readers, that will explain why it was appear that I am all over the place. I am here to have a place to vent and share.
I will have to come back later to send my letter to the angels. I think that I hear my sweet Divya up.

Mathmatical Patterns that Inspire and Point Us Toward The Singularity

I find that in spirituality, we are often told to watch for trends to help guide us. So, that's why I've written about seeing butterflies

So for this post it is ironic that my pattern is about patterns.

I had Coast to Coast radio show with George Knapp interviewing Ray Kurzweil that I had just finished listening to this morning. It was from February 24, 2013.  I had bookmarked it awhile ago and forgotten about it obviously. Kurzweil kept pointing out that he was a follower of patterns. His goal is to look for ways to make humans better by finding ways to merge technology and biology to make it better.

I just finished watching today's subscriptions that came up and there was a Ted Talk by Arthur Benjamin and he talked about mathematics...primarily Fibonacci numbers. You can see the talk below. He emphasized how mathematics and logic patterns such as Fibonacci numbers are found in nature and can and should be used to inspire.

So how intriguing when comparing the two speakers, that they both look for patterns and see patterns as primary functions of their work. It seems that their works is so similar and yet so opposite of each other.

Just thought I'd share.

Correlation Between Photons and DNA

Gregg Braden appeared on Coast to Coast AM on 1/18/07 and I took the following notes:
Two experiments that test for what Braden calls "The Matrix"
1. Phantom DNA experiment: looked at the correlation between photons and DNA; and photons are what everything in the world is made of.
2. Institute of Heart Math in Boulder Creek, CO found at heartmath.org studied emotions effect on DNA

The two experiments above combine to say the following: That Heart Math shows that emotion changes DNA while the Phantom DNA experiment shows that DNA is change the world around us.

Look at the Global Consciousness Project at noosphere.princeton.edu

Braden commented that he has been on every continent and talked to people all around the world. Everywhere that he has gone people have a sense that we have a power within us that is untapped.

Japan may become uninhabitable

Worse than meltdown, ’melt-through’ has occurred at Fukushima; Official suggests Japan could become ’uninhabitable’2011 06 09

By Ethan A. Huff | NaturalNews.com
Recent reports confirming that Reactors 1, 2, and 3 of the Fukushima Daiichi nuclear facility completely melted just hours after the devastating earthquake and tsunami hit the area on March 11(http://www.naturalnews.com/032537_F...) have been trumped by even worse news that those same reactors have all likely "melted through," a situation that according to Japan’s Daily Yomiuri DY is "the worst possibility in a nuclear accident."

And senior political official Ichiro Ozawa suggested in an interview with The Wall Street Journal (WSJ) that the Fukushima situation could make the entire country of Japan "unlivable."

A nuclear core meltdown involves nuclear fuel exceeding its melting point to the point where it damages the core, leaks out, and threatens to potentially release high levels of radiation into the environment. However, a nuclear melt-through is an even worse scenario, as nuclear fuel literally melts through the bottom of damaged reactor pressure vessels into out containment vessels -- and possibly even melts through those outer vessels directly into ground, air, and water.

The report suggesting that melt-throughs have already occurred, which is set to be submitted to the International Atomic Energy Agency (IAEA), is the "first official recognition" of this dire situation, according to DY. It also confirms early suspicions that such a scenario had been underway all along, as later reports confirmed that the epic disaster at the reactors had produced holes in come of the plant’s core containment vessels, and that radioactive water, and possibly even fuel, were leaking into the lower vessels.

Read the full article at: naturalnews.com

Living the unconventional life of a bohemian in Orlando Yelp style

You're Invited: Yelp's Bohemian Bash
This Weekly Yelp brought to you by Fashion Contender	November 6, 2013
RSVP now! November 17 from 3-6pm Submerge yourself into a Sundayfunday fiesta with some of your Yelp buds. On November 17, you're invited to our boldest party of the year. >From 3–6pm at The Acre, rub elbows with fellow tastemakers while being treated to the area's best grub and giggle juice… for free!  This adults-only event is free with RSVP — but space is limited, so get on the list! No need to worry about languishing in thirst. There will be bountiful beverages provided by Oblivion Taproom, Winter Park Distilling Company, Barnie's CoffeeKitchen, Cupcake Vineyards Wine, Brown Distributing, Stack Wines, Tito's Handmade Vodka, Vain, General Waters Inc. and RedBull. A bundle of bites will be up for nibbles from Tako Cheena, B&B Junction, Hotto Potto, Hubbly Bubbly Falafel Shop, Sus Hi Eatstation, Hot Krust, Virgin Olive Market, Café Annie, Qdoba,The Station Bar & Grill, Forbidden Fruit Jam Co., Tony Roma's,Smart Coffee HD, Regional Grill and Bayou, Pretzel Crisps, andKIND Healthy Snacks. Satisfy that sweet tooth withPeterbrooke Chocolatier of Winter Park, Sweet By Holly,SnoTea Desserts, The Bohemian Baker, and 4Delights. Eclectic entertainment will be scattered throughout, so make sure to check out performances from the Florida Symphony Youth Orchestra, The Venue, Derek Stroker, Pete Martin, Ella Glasgow, and FunDipped Productions. Play on with The Henna Studio, 02 Breathe Oxygen Bar, Banana Hammock Republic, and SNAP! Studio Booth. Jim White Photography will be on site capturing all the memories. Make sure to rejuvenate with the relaxing offerings from Xclusive Nail Bar and Spa, Balance Orlando, The Beauty Spot, and Alchemy Hair Salon. All this fun is free, but we hope you share the Yelp love with a $10 donation at the door to The Harbor House of Central Florida.   On The Radar Don't Cry, Drink Up! Casselberry Craft Beer & Blues Festival Art Speaks... Culture Pop: The Clothesline Show Live Out Loud! Moroccan Cultural Festival Perfection Squared = Bliss Cheese & Wine Pairing @ East End Market Get Weird & Wonderful... John Vanderslice Live @ The Acre  Sorry kids, +21 only. RSVP here to make sure you get in!  (A Word from Our Sponsor) Experience Orlando Style Magazine's Inaugural "FashionContender" Live Event Friday, November 8 At Vanity Downtown Move over Project Runway and Fashion Star. Now it’s time for local fashion dreamers to get noticed — Fashion Contender in Orlando! Central Florida's #1 luxury lifestyle magazine debuts the first live semifinal event for its exciting fashion competition, giving emerging local designers the unique opportunity to showcase their work and win a grand-prize trip to NYC Fashion Week and more fabulous prizes. All-star panel of judges include Chris Kirkpatrick, Joy Cioci, Estee Martin, and Melanie Pace with host Lance Smith.  Get on the list for FashionContender! RSVP to info@styletome.com.

Psychedelic Mushrooms Can Help Depression

talking to the angels...waiting is hard

its hard when you believe and then it takes time to get everything into place

i keep getting messages from the angels that the wait is over and that victory is near.

I want/need a promotion or to have some new source of insight

....my thoughts distracted me. I was reading about how medical marijuana farming is going to be a new lucrative business and wanted to talk to the kids about studying that. Maybe me and Divya invsting in it or even Divya working on the farm or in the store.

I meant to write new source of income and I wrote insight....

I'm going to leave it there...

I pray for more abundance and wealth come to Divya and I so that she doesn't have to work. I want to get out of this department...hell this college soon...so that there's no blowback on me if the old department that still pays my bills crumbles like the house of cards that it always seems to be. I ran the numbers with the old director who actually understood numbers, but this new guy is just a blowhard and I'm kept in the dark so I don't know what's real and what's not....

I am going to my surgeon on November 18th. I pray that I'll be able to schedule the surgery right around the time of Christmas so that I can be off during that time, and have it done so that I can get on with my new job that I should have by then.

Angel for November is Joy

Inspirational Message

Approach life with a buoyant attitude, light heart and unencumbered mind.  Let joy lift your spirit and fill each moment.   There is a presence that abides deep within each of us - that connects us to all that we are and all that is. We are holographic beings and therefore can enter into the whole from any point. Joy is an essential manifestation of this presence and is always available.   Joy springs naturally from a deep sense of belonging, whereas suffering comes from the longing to be. In these stressful times, our beingness feels elusive and beyond our reach. Weighted down by guilt, shame, or a negative outlook, we hesitate to allow ourselves to experience joy.   An unencumbered mind is not caught in the loop of pleasure seeking and pain blocking, it is free of rationalizations and preconceptions of what should happen. We are no longer distracted by the 'what ifs', but are open to the experience of what is. Joy is not a result, it is a source and we are the sorcerers.   Settle and feel at home in yourself, own your desires and feel curious about life. Let go of striving and time as a measure of movement. Reality is a continuous emanation of the soul's unfolding experience grounded in joy.   May your month be filled with Joy-Full moments..

Graditude Creates Abundance

From The Secret Daily Teachings

Never let a day pass without looking for the good, feeling the good within you, praising, appreciating, blessing, and being grateful.

Make it your life commitment, and you will stand in utter awe of what happens in your life.

The Daily City Local Orlando Metro Holiday Shopping Event Guide

Here is a listing of all the fun, quirky,down home, city-riffic, hipster, un-cool, old-people, un-professional, professional, lame and great holiday shopping events that we know of. Did we forget one? Tell us about it in the comments and we'll add it!

Saturday November 1 + Sunday November 3 10am-6pm Fall Fiesta in the Park (Facebook| Website) Lake Eola Park, Orlando. Outdoor fun and family activities draws thousands of Central Floridians to Lake Eola for the largest arts and crafts festival in Orlando. While live entertainment and a kids' area highlight this event that spans the entire walkway of Lake Eola (over a mile long), the real stars of Fall Fiesta are the 600+ artists and crafters that come from all over the United States to display and sell their original works. There is also a neighborhood-wide yard sale near the event. 

Saturday November 2 + Sunday November 3 10am-5pm The Villages Craft Festival at Spanish Spring (Website) With a quaint, Southwestern look and feel, Spanish Springs Town Square, in The Villages is a grand community offering something for everyone. From shopping and dining, both indoors and out, to movie theaters special events, houses of worship, and live entertainment daily, Spanish Springs provides the ultimate weekend of adventure.??Join us at Spanish Springs for another fantastic craft festival at The Villages. Shop handcrafted leather goods, paintings, photography, personalized products, glassworks, and much more - all made in The USA! ?Stroll along beautiful Spanish Springs and visit with the nation's best crafters, at this free weekend event. Hours: Saturday and Sunday 10:00 AM - 5:00 PM

Saturday Nov 30 10am-4pm WinterFest Holiday Craft Show and Bake Sale (Facebook) Hope Lutheran church 2600 North Dean Road Orlando. The Hope Lutheran church will be selling trees and wreaths at their Winter Fest on Saturday November 30th. The Central Florida Artisan's Guild will have vendors set up in the community room selling wonderful handmade crafts, holiday items, and baked goods along with beverages. The event will take place from 10am - 4pm and there will be a raffle. Raffle tickets are earned with purchases, more info to be released on this. Come one come all and get your holiday shopping started with handmade and love. Help support local small businesses in the process.

Saturday Dec 7 + Sunday Dec 8 11am-6pm Big Bang Bazaar (Website) Maitland Civic Center 641 S. Maitland Ave, Maitland. $5 admission. Tons of vendors selling repurposed items ranging from earrings to pillows all with pop culture references (mostly video game and movie references). 

Friday Dec 6 + Saturday Dec 7 6pm-midnight on Friday night, 10am-10pm on Saturday. Big Box of Orlando (Facebook) Say It Loud 1121 N Mills Ave, Orlando, Florida 32803. $10 admission Friday, $5 Saturday. Big Box of Orlando is a weekend pop-up shop inside a warehouse featuring a tightly curated collection of gift-giving merchandise from mostly Orlando-based small brands. This is a fully decorated without the vendors-behind-tables set up. There is one check-out line, so you can buy from multiple brands without doing multiple check-outs. FRIDAY DEC 6th 7pm-12am is the preview/media party. Get first dibs on everything and enjoy a live DJ, drinks and general frivolity. $10 admission a portion of which goes to a local TBA charity. SATURDAY DEC 7th 10am-10pm is general shopping hours open to the public. $5 admission a portion of which goes to a local TBA charity.   Vendors include West Elm, Rifle Paper Co., Lineage Coffee, Credo Coffee, Hellbrand Leather, Hog Eat Hog custom furniture, Restoration Vintage, Shop at 851, Modern Grace, Retromended, Forema, Dear Prudence, Hampton / Chopping Blocks, Other Peoples Property, Chronicle Stones

Saturday Dec 14 + Sunday 15 9am-5pm City Wide Market presents Retro Rodeo (Facebook) Bergeron Rodeo Grounds Area, 4271 Davie Road, Davie. Florida. South Florida needed a traditional, old-school style flea market full of truly great finds and great deals, and City-Wide Market accepts the challenge. It's a huge garage sale, flea market, vintage and local product fair rolled into one show with Vintage, Collectibles, Secondhand, Antiques, Locally Made, Curiosities & More. 

Sunday December 15 Grandma Party (Twitter | Facebook | Tumblr). 10 am - sundown. Stardust Video & Coffee 1842 e. winter park rd. 407-623-3393. "Grandma Party is you and me and all of us making it happen" so says the organizers'  website. The event is a don't-miss. Very, very creative people knit, stitch, weave, loom, bake, cook and craft for weeks in preparation for this event. The thing that differs this event from other is that the products are creative, most often with a sense of humor. 

And for your after-holidays shopping event needs:

Saturday January 25 - Monday January 27 American Craft Retailers Expo (Website) 9am-5pm daily. Orange County Convention Center, Orlando. Cooperatively co-located with the Orlando Gift Show including Orlando Cash & Carry Show, ACRE™ Orlando is truly the latest revolution in wholesale shows for the East. Just as artists and buyers have come to expect from ACRE™ Las Vegas in the West, ACRE™ Orlando will feature hundreds of juried wholesale artists among seven distinct juried showcases - Handmade Jewelry, Handmade Gifts & Accessories, The Gallery of Fine Crafts, The Gallery of Fine Jewelry, Handmade Wearable Art, and One-of-a-Kind, with Emerging Artists who are brand new to trade shows, sprinkled throughout. The Gallery of Fine Crafts and the Gallery of Fine Jewelry spotlight handmade items that mostly wholesale at price points of $100 and above. Within these two showcases retailers will find gold, silver and platinum jewelry, furniture, home decor, garden accessories, and more. The One-of-a-Kind showcase is by invitation only and features products mostly in the $500 price point and above. Rounding out the show is the Retailer Resource area, which will offer a collection of services and products such as imprinted bags, lighted display stands, industry publications and organizations.

Sometimes you just need the beef...Yelp Orlando

Yelp's Got Beef... Sandwiches!   This Weekly Yelp brought to you by Beer and Bacon Festival October 30, 2013 Alicia E Fresh, hot, juicy heaven! 'Round these parts you don't hear the old slogan "Where's the the beef?" too often. Whether corned, roasted, or dipped in au jus, The City Beautiful is stacked with slow-cooked sandwich options. This Weekly's bringing the heat on which ones to put in your belly. Brisket Bus (Food Truck) "Whenever I see it... I must have it," exclaims Anthony B. "You can't go wrong with anything on the truck. It all comes down to your taste. If they have Reuben (with sauerkraut) & Rachel (with cole slaw) order the 'Sex on a Boat' — it's a half of each sandwich; you'll thank me later." The Pastrami Project (Food Truck)  Kevin H "highly, highly" recommends this find "for all your pastrami eating needs. They'll cut your meat the way you like it, lean or fatty," and add it to NY rye bread topped off with spicy brown mustard. Italian Beefstro (Colonial, Downtown) "Very good and the service was warm and friendly... very genuine." Their signature Italian Beef is stacked with roast beef on french bread with sweet peppers and hot giardiniera. "It is succulent and filling," recounts Mia P. Nick's Family Diner (North OBT & All American Blvd.) If you tackle this stop on the weekend, "definitely get there early because there will be a line," warns Dee B. "It's very home-style cooking and the portions are huge!" Weather you choose the open faced roast beef, Philly cheese steak or any other sammie, you will leave "pleasantly full without breaking the bank!" Pom Pom's (The Milk District) When the French Dip Thursday special arrived on Jeff K's radar, he confessed: "I changed my lunch plans. It was as perfect as I had hoped, tender soft roast beef and, here's the best part, onions out of the French Onion soup, soft and saturated with flavor from the broth." On The Radar Pet Party Play Date! Amazing Pet Expo Welcome The Season: 43rd Annual Fall Fiesta In The Park Blues Blockparty! Church Street Art & Jazz Festival Stroll The Strip Of Imaginative Crafts... Lake Mary Festival Of The Arts Forget the Ordinary, Embrace The Extraordinary: Magic Mansion  Compiled by your Community Manager Colleen B with help from Yelpers like you! (A Word from Our Sponsor) Beer And Bacon Festival Sizzles At Cranes RoostNov. 2 The Beer and Bacon Festival features more than 30 of the finest craft beers paired with delicious bacon-inspired specialties to tempt and tease every palate on Saturday, November 2. This festival, presented by seasoned event producers CBS Radio and hosted at Uptown Altamonte, showcases the growing love of craft beer along the scenic shores of Cranes Roost Park. Your craft beer ticket includes samples of more than 30 craft beers. Restaurant small-plate offerings are available for purchase between $2 and $6. $25 adult (age 21+) online advance tickets. Use code Yelp and save $5.