God l wish Divya was home right now. Her Mom passed and I stayed with the dogs. This is harder and more work then you would think.
l miss her though. She is my rock and northern star. she keeps me grounded and on track.
I logged on to work to do a couple of quick things to stay ahead of the game.I must still have access to stuff at my old department related to hiring. Anyway I got an email that said that I got this position had been closed. I'll come back to that in a minute.
About a week ago my boss said an offhand comment about a former coworker in such a way that I heard it at that my job was being eliminated. I said something to my boss right @ that time. This was an unusual act for me ... to question her meaning right @ the time that I have a concern. She said what no I'm glad that you asked because my mom has the same problem that she misunderstands what I mean.
I called my friend and asked if she was ok. She said yes and nothing more. She had had her job eliminated so she had experienced exactly what I was worried about,
I saw that there was a new job description for International Programs.
finally, my horrible boss had a meeting @ HR on Thursday that she told my Coworker about as she was leaving on Wednesday. It was her and the college HR person. I had been ok for the most part but just intrigued with what changes were going on @ my old dept.
I thought my boss was just trying to push my buttons.
But I have to admit that the meets @ HR spooked me pretty good.
l went and talked with the ladies in the dean's office and found out that it was related to adjunct Contracts.
So my freek out was short lived and went from full blown back to manageable.
Then tonight I get this email that says that the position was Closed and looked @ the one and only application. It was my friend. My friend who was treated so poorly and had to fight for another job. She was being brought back and being promoted. My boss didn't tell me. My friend didn't tell me.
It feels like a punch in the gut. The kicker is that my friend is not very good @ her job. But that seems to be who is prospering.
So I don't know who to trust. Or what to believe. Is my horrible boss potentially not so horrible and just misunderstood? Do I trust my old friend? It's likely that she was told not to say anything. or is she part of the cool kids club now.
l wish my sweetheart was here tonight she would help me to make sense of it all and put it in the right perspective
God she is my angel and gives me peace
I miss you baby hurry home.
I'll write an angel letter tomorrow. Tonight l just want to sleep and not think about anything
I'm taking 2 full Xanax and a Benadryl. It was a little bit to consider because my new blood pressure Medicine was slowed my heart rate and my doctor told me to monitor it. I'll take a reading before I go to bed but I just need my brain to shut up so that I can sleep and tomorrow is another opportunity,
God is good
Bless me and my family, I love and miss you Divya.
l miss her though. She is my rock and northern star. she keeps me grounded and on track.
I logged on to work to do a couple of quick things to stay ahead of the game.I must still have access to stuff at my old department related to hiring. Anyway I got an email that said that I got this position had been closed. I'll come back to that in a minute.
About a week ago my boss said an offhand comment about a former coworker in such a way that I heard it at that my job was being eliminated. I said something to my boss right @ that time. This was an unusual act for me ... to question her meaning right @ the time that I have a concern. She said what no I'm glad that you asked because my mom has the same problem that she misunderstands what I mean.
I called my friend and asked if she was ok. She said yes and nothing more. She had had her job eliminated so she had experienced exactly what I was worried about,
I saw that there was a new job description for International Programs.
finally, my horrible boss had a meeting @ HR on Thursday that she told my Coworker about as she was leaving on Wednesday. It was her and the college HR person. I had been ok for the most part but just intrigued with what changes were going on @ my old dept.
I thought my boss was just trying to push my buttons.
But I have to admit that the meets @ HR spooked me pretty good.
l went and talked with the ladies in the dean's office and found out that it was related to adjunct Contracts.
So my freek out was short lived and went from full blown back to manageable.
Then tonight I get this email that says that the position was Closed and looked @ the one and only application. It was my friend. My friend who was treated so poorly and had to fight for another job. She was being brought back and being promoted. My boss didn't tell me. My friend didn't tell me.
It feels like a punch in the gut. The kicker is that my friend is not very good @ her job. But that seems to be who is prospering.
So I don't know who to trust. Or what to believe. Is my horrible boss potentially not so horrible and just misunderstood? Do I trust my old friend? It's likely that she was told not to say anything. or is she part of the cool kids club now.
l wish my sweetheart was here tonight she would help me to make sense of it all and put it in the right perspective
God she is my angel and gives me peace
I miss you baby hurry home.
I'll write an angel letter tomorrow. Tonight l just want to sleep and not think about anything
I'm taking 2 full Xanax and a Benadryl. It was a little bit to consider because my new blood pressure Medicine was slowed my heart rate and my doctor told me to monitor it. I'll take a reading before I go to bed but I just need my brain to shut up so that I can sleep and tomorrow is another opportunity,
God is good
Bless me and my family, I love and miss you Divya.
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